why am i still infront of the monitor?
hmm..cz this samsung lcd better than my 14.1' monitor?
for hw long i didn't use this comp..
n nw..
late at nite..
i gt the chance to use it..
i felt stupid , idiot..suddenly..
why when he knw goin clubbing will make me unhappy although i say its ok..
he still go..
bt when i wana go trip with kor..
i knw he is unhappy..bt i wont go..
cz?
i dun wan him unhappy?
am i too stupid?
or ..
lost..
i duno..
i duno why i still choose not to go..
i duno..
i duno..why i cry..
he is clubbin out thr..
or..mayb get close with some hot babes..
n me?
at home..
playing maple..
his acc..nt mine..
jz to help him lv up..
am i too stupid?
im such a stupid noob..
i practice all the shuffle basic for hours..
n nw..
leg pain like hell..
cant slp..
the sad feeling have fly so far away long ago..
bt 2nite..
it seems bak to me..
n stick to me..
why?
acc clubbing is not smtg tat not good..
i nv say not agree of let him go..
bt..
mayb im jz too selfish..
the time we left for each other is getting lesser..
im goin to study..
n i wont be bak every week..
last time..
we were working together..
so atleast every day we see each other for at least 8 hour..
bt nw..
i stop work..
we met oni once a week..
n thr's oni twice we can meet b4 i leave..
mayb..deep in my heart.
i jz hope he could spend more time with me..
aft im not here..
where he wana go.
wat time bak..
no ones care..
he gt all the freedom..
bt b4 tat..
why cant he gv me the feeling of safe..
is it so difficult?
or..i am jz so useless..
i remembered last time..
watever i felt..i tell u..
watever i want..i tell u..
bt nw..
i wont..
i not dare...
why?
it is because i too scare to lose u..
so i jz let thg go the way u want..
i dun dare to say no for the thg u say yes..
am i getting more useless..
and cry is all i do nw..
Written @
12:34 AM
