I have forget hw long I didn’t upload my blog..
Yesterday, I clean up my room..
Throw away wat I dun wana keep anymore n pack wat I wana bring to KL..
N oso keep those thg tat are special..
It reminds me a lot of my childhood and the past..
When was young..
While there was a number of guy wanted to get u..
U will really struggle hard to choose who u want…
Bt as grow..
I understand tat I dun really must chose any one from them..
Guys always do a lot of thgs..buying present especially to win my heart..
Bt then, I realise the one I accept usually dun do much thing to get me..
Maybe..more action u do, it make me feel more fake..
All I wan is heart or even depends on fate..
From Kelvin..my first love..
The oni letter I still keep..
I read it again.
I cried.
I wonder wat I felt last time..
He’s really a nice guy..
Actually, we didn’t’ really breakup..
Is jz …fate…
Dun let us be together..
He left this world..
He promise to be an angel tat always by my side..
Make sure I wont get hurt..
Make sure I always get the best thg in the world..
Its really a good memory …
Secondly..
I found those photo sticker..
That was the first time I play with those machine..
June..
He really a nice guy oso..
We together abt 8 months..
Den is all my fault..
I am the one to say break up..
When with him..
All my fren say we were perfect couple..
From face to height..
We are really match..
Jeremy..he was the reason I brokeup with june..
I knew him frm my working place..
That was my first job.,.
As waitress..and new to this job..
He’s my senior..
He teach me everythg..
Frm serving..
Memorizing the menu..
Then slowly..
I found we like each other..
Den we were together..
Aft school reopen..
We were in a long distance relationship..
Den until 13 of april..
He said wana break..coz he felt pressure with me..
Why?
I duno..
Maybe..we really not meant for each other…
Bt tat year..my birthday..he gv me surprise..
N tat was my first time receiving flower..
Thank mie..
Slowly..
When I go to form 5..
MC..was an important person..
As end of form 4..
This guy become quite close to me..
Fetch me to school..send me bak..
N even prepare breakfast for me..
Bt then..
He not my cup of tea..
I wonder hw was he right now..
I remember 2006, mooncake festival..
My district school have the habit of sending little mooncake as present..
Chinese society of each school will incharge..
I receive the most among my class..
Why?
Coz mostly is from him..
Thankx…bt I do hope u wont waste the money this way..
Good luck for everythg in ur future..
My 17 birthday..
I gt a party..
A nice and unforgettable party..
One of my fren brought him here..
He say duno wat to buy for me..so that guy as my present..
Den aft a few week aft that..
This guy become my bf..
Haha..
Unbelievable?
Or this is wat I say fate..
Until nw..
A few more day goin to be our one year anniversary..
I duno does he remember that..
I do have prepare present for him..
Although is not smtg veri worthy bt I hope he will like it..
All the way we together..
From before he own a car..
Til nw..the car is goin to be one year old..
B4 he bought tiz car..
He asked me wat car better..
Even the colour was chosen by me..
We do pass thru hard times..
Time tat we almost separate..
Cried..happiness..
I have forget hw many times we have quarrel..
Hw many times I have cried for him..
Bt all the way we together..
I knw we treat each other with true heart..
Hmm..
Tonite…
Why am I here alone?
Kor working..
N he?
Clubbing with his fren.
Since he with me..
He nv went clubbing with his fren cz he knw I dun really like it…
They do ask me go..
Bt I dun feel like goin..so..
He always get my permission wherever he go..
Hope he have some fun ba..
B4 spm..i promised myself to go for some vacation to relax myself..
Bt then..i jz work n work n work since aft spm..
At first..
I have the chance to go pulau redang..
Bt then..cz have to drive n not bus..
N If both of us left at the same time..
Den his boss goin to be mad..
So..we didn’t go..
I hope to go penag..
Gurney drive..eat all the nice food..
Den go langkawi..
Go beach side..
Sea side walk..count star…
And even collect my favourite seashell…
N buy all the imported chocolate..
Pulau redang..have an experience of diving..
N everythg..
Kor is goin malacca and port Dickson with his fren..
When he told me abt tat..
I was quite sad..
Cz he nv ask me do I wana go..
Usually he will always ask do I wana join..
I felt..
My importance in his heart had decrease..
Bt tiz should be normal..
I am the one who hurting him all the way..
Aft I ask can I join..
He do say ok…n hope me to go with him..
I told mami..mami oso let me go..
I told lao gong zai…even he oso let me go..
Cz he knw I really hope to go out and have some fun.
And not jz stay at home..
Bt I knw if I really go..
He will be veri unhappy..
So I didn’t go at last..
No one knows actually hw much I hope to go..
I really hope to go n have some fun..
Bt 10 was our one year anniversary…
So..i think I should stay ..
Duno since when..
I gain weight..
Haix..
Mayb is due to my lazyness..
So..i have start diet…
These days..i jz start practising shuffle..
Why suddenly wana learn?
Actually is because him..
I remembered when he say hope to have couple shuffle with me and show to his fren…
Tat moment.
His eyes were full of hope..
Act..i dun really like shuffle..
I jz try to make his dream come true..
I changed..
I duno since when..
Before this..i always stop him from this and tat..
Bt now..
Watever he want..i jz allow..
He wana modified his car..
I always say this not nice..tat not good..
Especially the eye lid..
Tat day..we were outside breakfast..
A car pass by..wiith its extra large exhaust pipe..
With tat annoying sound oso..
Den I jz simply say.u dun change ur car into tat style..
Others all will do..
Den in one second..he ask..
Means can put eye lid..
When I say yes..
He was so happy..
Like ppl have strike the jackpot..
Tat moment..
I felt even more I should let him do whatever he like..
He could be happier..
So..i have decide wat to get for him as our one year anniversary present..
Jz hope he will like it..
And really thankx to dee..
Hehe..
Nx time treat u eat..
Hmm..
18th im leaving..
goin to “jailed”..
hehe…
hostel actually..
my college life goin to start on 20th..
wat would happened?
Do I goin to meet more handsome guy?
Hehe..
Tat jz dreaming..
Like mami said.
I go there to study..not other thgz..
Have to concentrate n be good girl..
N guai guai oso..if not lao gong will worry..
It’s a lonely nite for me tonite..
Huggin my baby …
Duno whr to go..and wat to do..
Would u be there?
still..this song is always accompany me..
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9:39 PM
